I have some good and great news! My health appears to be on the upswing, and while Dwain isn’t necessarily cured, he is back at work and I am slowly getting back to my routine. I’m not pushing it, and I heard Jesus loudly and clearly when he whispered (actually roared :)) “You aren’t taking care of yourself. What happened to your vitamin regimen? Why aren’t you resting? Who the Harry cares if the pantry door won’t close? Fix it in the Spring!”
Yes, I have a personal relationship with Jesus. When I found the swollen and painful lymph node last week? I heeded his words and dove into recovery like a pit-bull chasing a cat-with stealth, speed and my tail between both legs. It is so very easy to take our health for granted. We don’t appreciate what we can</em do, and often, with deranged fervor, chase what we cannot.
I grew up hating the word NO. With every morsel of my being, I loathed that word. I once punched out a bedroom window because my father told me I couldn't use the car until I had untangled the Christmas lights. Not proud of it, I acted like a brat, and it taught me nothing at the time. Only now, in middle age, do I understand that we, as humans, even as Christians, are not able-nor meant, to do all things under the sun, and we only hurt ourselves when we insist on forcing the square peg into a round hole.
You see, God created us to be the best version of ourselves we can be-we have power we do not use, ideas that never see the light of day, compassion that surfaces at our convenience. We were never, ever meant to be the solution to everyone's problems. However, if we have an intimate relationship with Christ, we can allow the Holy Spirit to guide us in what we can do; in order to do this we must get quiet, and listen to the ebb and flow of His lilted voice, asking that we think before we speak, comprehend before acting, and love like our very lives depended upon it.
Today, and every day, Jesus forgives our sins, grants us redemption and pats us on the proverbial butt as if to say:
You are my beloved, and through me you are given the strength to pick up your cross and follow….wherever I may lead.