Good Sunday afternoon to you, I’d like to explain my absence: my personal computer took a giant crap on Saturday morning, leaving me bitchy and floundering. I have been in such a state of turmoil that I thought about quitting writing altogether-and then my husband lent me his business laptop. Problem solved, if only momentarily.
I was stewing and spewing when the Holy Spirit spoke to me, loudly and clearly.
Consider the next few days a Spiritual retreat of sorts. Just you and me, no television, computer or phone.
I mentioned that my husband is leaving for New Hampshire tomorrow morning in my last blog. I can’t say I relish the thought of the next few days; but I am certain of one thing: Jesus will be with me, like always, and He alone will give me the strength to manage on my own.
I have never been keen on being without my husband. This brings to mind the trip we took out to LA, in 2005, to see my brother. We had a lovely time, truly, until the night we met a high school friend for dinner. My drinking was at its very worst at that time, and I clung to the tequila that evening, in a Mexican restaurant far, far away from home. Afterwards, the boys headed to a cigar bar, while my sister in law drove me back to my brother’s home. Unfortunately, I hid my Ativan from the baby sitter, and drunk as I was? I couldn’t find it, not to save my life. I began having the Mother of all anxiety attacks, and cried out loud for Dwain. Poor Julie had to drive back to downtown LA, where she found my brother, husband and friend, drunk as the proverbial skunks they were-barely hanging on to their barstools. As Julie waited for my brother, who was in the men’s room, she heard a loud bang accompanied with a few choice words. It turned out that her husband had fallen into the trash can, and couldn’t find his way out.
“You are a grown man! And you! (She pointed at Dwain) Your wife is at home having a meltdown because you’re not with her. She can’t find her anxiety medication. Get your asses home. NOW!”
Back at the townhouse, I heard a scuffle in the hallway. The door swung open, Dwain wobbling back and forth, my brother on his knees. Julie was livid. My niece was three at the time, and Craig was ordered to bed-only he couldn’t get up. According to my husband, after I crashed, my brother crawled around aimlessly-the harder Dwain laughed, the angrier my sister in law became.
“Help me! Dwain, man, help me….where are we?”
Ah, good times…
So, I will try to write when this lap top is available. We don’t have funds for a brand new computer; not after Christmas, a new chimney, and prescription glasses for the two of us.
I am working on a new blog as well, but this one will be private, hidden from the prying eyes of my family. I will be inviting each of you personally, as I just can’t imagine writing to a better, more supportive audience than you~