I have always felt an inner peace around animals, perhaps because I know they don’t have the capacity to hurt me as so many humans have-but these “people” can’t touch me now, as I am wearing the full armor of God. People, if you think true followers of Christ have lily white lives, nothing could be further from the truth. Look at the people Jesus hung out with, um, that should tell you everything.
I want you to know that I will one day be writing soon enough about my inane and often absurd journey of recovery from addictions. I am sure I’ll be compelled to write about my travels and feelings, the plight of the homeless et al. again, I just don’t know when that will be.
You see, I am on fire for God. I burn for Jesus more than ever before, and I can honestly say I never understood the term.
“Yeah, that bitch is ON FIRE for God, let me tell you!”
My thought cloud inevitably read, What The Hell Does That Mean? And how do I, myself, join the club? It is only now, at the age of 58 and after years and years of darkness that I can truly say I am free and at peace; and because of the way He has led, protected and loved me? I can’t help but want to serve Him, and give back to humanity one one millionth of what my Lord and Savior has given to me.
If I am making you want to vomit, I understand. Not too long ago I would have read this very paragraph and SOL’s (Snarked Out Loud) I can hear the snort as we speak. But this has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with Jesus within me. What were the words in that tune?
“…who saved a wretch like me?”
I was selfish and needy, arrogant at times-always out for me and my needs. When you accept Jesus into your life, or vice versa, you don’t spontaneously combust with the Holy Spirit-however, if you are a true follower of Christ you will see changes, drastic changes in your values and heart. You are filled with love for others, and most times it’s because those of us who turn to God are broken. We have suffered, some of us our entire lives. We didn’t fit in, we didn’t fit out. Real human beings broke our spirit. When that happens one has two choices: admit their need or turn to lust and greed.
As of now, approximately 51% of the country is either awakened or in the process of awakening. And when I say awakened I am not talking about the New Age “ascension” model. I am saying that via Project Mockingbird, we were all brainwashed, literally. While the Babylonians were thieving and killing? We were too busy to notice, we had better things to do! It’s called worshipping idols, folks. I was one of the worst-give me a People magazine and a beer? I was in ecstacy. My entire family followed to gossip rags relentlessy, and with great abandon. We celebrated the weekly arrival of People like some tribes celebrate feeding the entire village.
I know they omitted and changed some of the language in our bibles. I will do a blog on that, but I want to point something out-God does not intend for us to love our enemies, when those very foes we fight are Satan’s merry band of demons.
I refuse to love these monsters.
I’m in all out war mode, thank you very much.