When I was frolicking in the New Age movement (please DON’T) I took notice that a cacophony of ravens followed me-from state to state in fact, and it took me some time to realize that this was not a good thing. Between a well meaning Reiki Master (please DON’T) led me to Doreen Virtue’s angel cards, spirit guides, and the pineal gland.
I came to my senses when I went to her immediately after being stalked by a naked, wild haired, crazy man-and she told me I created the scenario, you know, by thinking about it. Kind of like The Secret, but backwards. Most of you know I went through absolute hell getting out of such ridiculousness and evil. The day of my plummet back into Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, I phoned my sister.
She never got back to me.
The same thing happened the day I was thrown down on my knees in utter sorrow, for the Holy Spirit had made it clear-I needed to apologize and repent. I didn’t really have a choice in the matter-on my knees for what seemed like hours, repeating over and over:
I have grieved your heart.
I had never, nor do I hope to ever feel that sadness and despair again.
I had been praying recently, about trying to make things “right” with my sibling. Abba answered that prayer rather quickly, as He reminded me that even though I have forgiven her, it doesn’t change who she is. How could I possibly move forward without an apology, or even an attempt to talk things out?
And what would become of my authentic self and the tough road walked to freedom from people who did not have my best interests at heart. I cleaned the closet of close friendships, and wound up making new friendships. And although I love my sister, and dearly miss my nieces and nephew?
I broke the chains that bound me. I can never go back.